Expectations

Funny how my recent posts have been about guys. Different guys.

Regardless.

These days my mind has been in a mess. I've been thinking about so many things. I've been feeling too many things. I've been feeling.. confused. Conflicted. So conflicted and confused about how I'm supposed to feel. I feel as though the good things that happen in my life just aren't meant to last. As though it's some sick joke or I did something hella fucked up that karma decides to bite me in the ass. Even though something feels comfortable, it feels so right.. but circumstances just won't allow for it to last.

I always feel like I'm not enough. I always feel like I'm undeserving. I have my doubts and anxiety because honestly, can things really be as good as they seem to be? Like, I'm happy when I'm with you. But happiness doesn't last does it? What if you realise that I'm not enough.. and just stop. 

Like every other guy.