Maliblue

It's past midnight and I'm here sitting on the lazy chair right outside my parents' bedroom just to get a decent internet connection, tapping my fingers on the keyboard time to time figuring how to put my thoughts into words.

Here goes.

Ever had that one person who you practically grew up with, be it your sibling or best friend? Ever felt like you two were so close you could share any dirty little secret with? Back then you would excitedly tell them the cute guy you're interested in and every single minor event that made you ecstatic would be shared. All those years of memories felt so fond and somehow you believed that nothing would ever change..
Those thoughts were naïve.

Glancing back at all the photos of our past, realising once again how close we used to be.. And knowing that things would never be the same. We used to stay up at night gossiping about things that used to matter, yet now we barely have a thing in common. Things changed. You left and you were alone. I was left alone too but soon enough I had gotten used to it. I drifted apart. I guess I can only say that I was probably unfamiliar with who you were turning out to be every year. Every time you returned, you became more different. I just didn't know how to take it.

And now I glance at my friends and feel such envy. The fun they have with their siblings, the secrets they share, the photos they take, the moments they spend.. I guess I can't have what they do. Nothing of the sort.

You're a completely different person, and it breaks my heart.
I miss you sister.